Ohmygodit'salmostvalentine'sday.
Posted: Mon Jan 28, 2013 2:00 am
((I'm sorry.))
I'll impart with the knowledge, a spark of my darkness
I'm a shamed artist that departs with the heart of catharsis,
Cracked fist, frostbitten, scared lips,
Reminisce your gift, reminiscent of guitar picks,
So I wander away, the waters uncharted,
The sun rises when we rise,
I don't want the thrill to be gone, I don't want to be cold.
Our lives, they unfold. Am I going to hold? I'm alone, as I lust for someone's trust.
On a bleek road covered in black snow,
And one touch of your touch feels kind of like a dagger to the skin,
While I'm erasing my lies from within,
And behold, my stone heart froze to the bone,
Up above my dome is a full moon, wheres the flow?
A syndicate of lies quick to be hitting me,
A calm blizzard limiting the visibility,
Listen to me, I'm stuck in the infirmity,
Frozen land, each step feels like eternity,
And Mother Nature? She's not showing me another tree.
Both eyes glued to the moon, the pursuit for the truth,
As I soar to the moon, there's nothing much I could do,
Cornered in a frozen room in the sadness of night,
Navigate through the woods in the absence of light,
Do you like the clothes on my back? I lack the pattern of uncertainty,
And certainly? I think this winter is gonna murder me.
How am I still alive? I could picture every shoelace,
Yet I still can't figure if that's my face.
Are we even half way? Are you my murderer?
I don't think the thing we had was circular,
I know what this is, a beggar can't be a chooser,
But I'm a loser, your devils always tell me I'm the loser,
I don't want to stay sane if it means another flame,
But regardless, this looks like the same place,
Nonetheless, I don't want to chase.
I would kill to survive, so provide me the eyes,
And when I step inside, till remember me
And I replied with a pride when implied was the warning
Only now I understand the advice set before me
They told me it was stormy, they tried their best to warn me
I said not to worry. That's the end of the story.
I'm a wretch and deformed, and I miss being here,
So stitch up my spirit, my soul is so torn
So just stop and hoist up the light fill the void in my heart
Somethings missing, like the sky and the stars,
Remember your innocence? Remember my toy car?
It's stuck in my skin, it stains like tar,
"I hate you!" I wish I never perpetuated,
My body doesn't look right when it's fermented,
The future isn't right if I end up cemented.
I'm so sorry! I swear, I mean it,
Every second of this curse feels like my prison,
If I could go back in time, I would choke down my pride,
Show my ego the way out the door,
I want to say sorry! I'm sorry I didn't hear you!
I hardly deserve absolution,
I'd bow and beg until my own back and legs sore
I'm so sorry, I know that you heard this all before,
I swear that my angst was empty,
I get down on my plastic knees, can you please just help me!
I wanted to be alone, but now I know you're worth it,
If I see that you kept the door closed, I'll know if I deserve it,
I'm certain with every part of my body that I'm worthless,
I'd manipulate my body but I'd still be worthless,
But what if I saw you again?
Then I know that my life didn't end.
So I depart for the last time, one sided correspondence
I say the same damn things in my mind, where's your correspondence?
Alone in my room with a scar on my walls,
As I look back to the gift with nostalgia down the hall,
I wandered from water to water,
Remember when we lay, your body was hotter?
If only you could see that my soul is above you,
I wish before I died, you just said "that I loved you."
...
Some context? I was feeling lonely. That's all there was to it. ;_;
I'll impart with the knowledge, a spark of my darkness
I'm a shamed artist that departs with the heart of catharsis,
Cracked fist, frostbitten, scared lips,
Reminisce your gift, reminiscent of guitar picks,
So I wander away, the waters uncharted,
The sun rises when we rise,
I don't want the thrill to be gone, I don't want to be cold.
Our lives, they unfold. Am I going to hold? I'm alone, as I lust for someone's trust.
On a bleek road covered in black snow,
And one touch of your touch feels kind of like a dagger to the skin,
While I'm erasing my lies from within,
And behold, my stone heart froze to the bone,
Up above my dome is a full moon, wheres the flow?
A syndicate of lies quick to be hitting me,
A calm blizzard limiting the visibility,
Listen to me, I'm stuck in the infirmity,
Frozen land, each step feels like eternity,
And Mother Nature? She's not showing me another tree.
Both eyes glued to the moon, the pursuit for the truth,
As I soar to the moon, there's nothing much I could do,
Cornered in a frozen room in the sadness of night,
Navigate through the woods in the absence of light,
Do you like the clothes on my back? I lack the pattern of uncertainty,
And certainly? I think this winter is gonna murder me.
How am I still alive? I could picture every shoelace,
Yet I still can't figure if that's my face.
Are we even half way? Are you my murderer?
I don't think the thing we had was circular,
I know what this is, a beggar can't be a chooser,
But I'm a loser, your devils always tell me I'm the loser,
I don't want to stay sane if it means another flame,
But regardless, this looks like the same place,
Nonetheless, I don't want to chase.
I would kill to survive, so provide me the eyes,
And when I step inside, till remember me
And I replied with a pride when implied was the warning
Only now I understand the advice set before me
They told me it was stormy, they tried their best to warn me
I said not to worry. That's the end of the story.
I'm a wretch and deformed, and I miss being here,
So stitch up my spirit, my soul is so torn
So just stop and hoist up the light fill the void in my heart
Somethings missing, like the sky and the stars,
Remember your innocence? Remember my toy car?
It's stuck in my skin, it stains like tar,
"I hate you!" I wish I never perpetuated,
My body doesn't look right when it's fermented,
The future isn't right if I end up cemented.
I'm so sorry! I swear, I mean it,
Every second of this curse feels like my prison,
If I could go back in time, I would choke down my pride,
Show my ego the way out the door,
I want to say sorry! I'm sorry I didn't hear you!
I hardly deserve absolution,
I'd bow and beg until my own back and legs sore
I'm so sorry, I know that you heard this all before,
I swear that my angst was empty,
I get down on my plastic knees, can you please just help me!
I wanted to be alone, but now I know you're worth it,
If I see that you kept the door closed, I'll know if I deserve it,
I'm certain with every part of my body that I'm worthless,
I'd manipulate my body but I'd still be worthless,
But what if I saw you again?
Then I know that my life didn't end.
So I depart for the last time, one sided correspondence
I say the same damn things in my mind, where's your correspondence?
Alone in my room with a scar on my walls,
As I look back to the gift with nostalgia down the hall,
I wandered from water to water,
Remember when we lay, your body was hotter?
If only you could see that my soul is above you,
I wish before I died, you just said "that I loved you."
...
Some context? I was feeling lonely. That's all there was to it. ;_;