Ohmygodit'salmostvalentine'sday.

[JonnyJerny]

((I'm sorry.))

I'll impart with the knowledge, a spark of my darkness
I'm a shamed artist that departs with the heart of catharsis,
Cracked fist, frostbitten, scared lips,
Reminisce your gift, reminiscent of guitar picks,
So I wander away, the waters uncharted,
The sun rises when we rise,
I don't want the thrill to be gone, I don't want to be cold.

Our lives, they unfold. Am I going to hold? I'm alone, as I lust for someone's trust.
On a bleek road covered in black snow,
And one touch of your touch feels kind of like a dagger to the skin,
While I'm erasing my lies from within,
And behold, my stone heart froze to the bone,
Up above my dome is a full moon, wheres the flow?
A syndicate of lies quick to be hitting me,
A calm blizzard limiting the visibility,
Listen to me, I'm stuck in the infirmity,
Frozen land, each step feels like eternity,
And Mother Nature? She's not showing me another tree.

Both eyes glued to the moon, the pursuit for the truth,
As I soar to the moon, there's nothing much I could do,
Cornered in a frozen room in the sadness of night,
Navigate through the woods in the absence of light,
Do you like the clothes on my back? I lack the pattern of uncertainty,
And certainly? I think this winter is gonna murder me.
How am I still alive? I could picture every shoelace,
Yet I still can't figure if that's my face.

Are we even half way? Are you my murderer?
I don't think the thing we had was circular,
I know what this is, a beggar can't be a chooser,
But I'm a loser, your devils always tell me I'm the loser,
I don't want to stay sane if it means another flame,
But regardless, this looks like the same place,
Nonetheless, I don't want to chase.

I would kill to survive, so provide me the eyes,
And when I step inside, till remember me
And I replied with a pride when implied was the warning
Only now I understand the advice set before me
They told me it was stormy, they tried their best to warn me
I said not to worry. That's the end of the story.
I'm a wretch and deformed, and I miss being here,
So stitch up my spirit, my soul is so torn
So just stop and hoist up the light fill the void in my heart
Somethings missing, like the sky and the stars,
Remember your innocence? Remember my toy car?
It's stuck in my skin, it stains like tar,
"I hate you!" I wish I never perpetuated,
My body doesn't look right when it's fermented,
The future isn't right if I end up cemented.

I'm so sorry! I swear, I mean it,
Every second of this curse feels like my prison,
If I could go back in time, I would choke down my pride,
Show my ego the way out the door,
I want to say sorry! I'm sorry I didn't hear you!
I hardly deserve absolution,
I'd bow and beg until my own back and legs sore
I'm so sorry, I know that you heard this all before,
I swear that my angst was empty,
I get down on my plastic knees, can you please just help me!
I wanted to be alone, but now I know you're worth it,
If I see that you kept the door closed, I'll know if I deserve it,
I'm certain with every part of my body that I'm worthless,
I'd manipulate my body but I'd still be worthless,
But what if I saw you again?
Then I know that my life didn't end.

So I depart for the last time, one sided correspondence
I say the same damn things in my mind, where's your correspondence?
Alone in my room with a scar on my walls,
As I look back to the gift with nostalgia down the hall,
I wandered from water to water,
Remember when we lay, your body was hotter?

If only you could see that my soul is above you,
I wish before I died, you just said "that I loved you."

...

Some context? I was feeling lonely. That's all there was to it. ;_;

[JonnyJerny]

OhmygodtheresliketwomoreweeksuntilvalentinesdaywhatdoIdowhatdoIdoohmygodohmygodohmygod

I regret having,
No regrets of mine,
Long nights when I'm outside,
I think I'll let this last one slide,
Just one more time.

I can't stand it,
When you,
Talk to me,
With that tone,
It reminds me of mother,
Stop watching my mouth move,
Stop turning my words into white noise.

I want to run away,
Run away from the woman,
I fell for her lies and eyes,
She thinks that I listen.

While I,
Act like,
I'm losing,
My mind,
Over,
Whatever lie,
I want to be a truth,
While I fade into my mind.

What do you want?
What do you want to know?
Regard these decisions,
They never feel like the right time.
What do you want?
What do you want to know?
I don't think you're a liar,
But save my sorrow.

Pick up,
The pieces our worlds,
Shattered across the worlds,
With careful hands,
I know your words are sharp,
I can read the blood.

What do you want?
What do you want to know?
I can read the blood.
What do you want?
What do you want to know?
I can read the blood.
What do you want?
What do you want know?
I can read the blood.

Sit down,
Listen to my tale,
About a beautiful girl,
Who she is,
And where she's been,
I watched her eyes,
Ten thousand times...

But I didn't realize,
Maybe I was wrong?

[JonnyJerny]

GRAB YOUR GUY OR GAL.
I HOPE YOU'RE READY FOR THIS DARK AND EDGY AND EMO RENDITION OF A DARK AND EDGY AND EMO TRACK.
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0MRLlFFIWeS
YOU WANT TO SING ALONG WITH ME? SURE, WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK?!

Close my eyes
Feel me now
I don't know maybe you could not love me now
You will know, and her feet down to the ground
Over there, and I want true love to love
You can't hide, oh no, from the way I feel

Turn my head
Into sound
I don't know when I lay down on the ground
You will find the (way it) hurts to love
Never cared and the world turned hearts to love
You will see, oh now, oh the way I do

You will wait
See me go
I don't care when your head turned all alone
You will wait when I turn my eyes around
Overhead when I hold you next to me
Overhead, to know, oh the way I see

Close my eyes
Feel me how
I don't know maybe you could not hurt me now
Here alone when I feel down too
Over there when I await true love for you
You can hide, oh no, oh the way I do
You will see, oh now, oh the way I do

[JonnyJerny]

http://vocaroo.com/i/s0kyKT99dBVM

ANNNAAA MOLLY! ANAAAA MOLLYYYYYYY!
SING WITH ME

A cloud hangs over this city by the sea
I watch the ships pass and wonder if she might be
Out there and sober as well from loneliness
Please do persist girl, it's time we met and made a mess

I picture your face at the back of my eyes
A fire in the attic, a proof of the prize
Anna Molly, Anna Molly, Anna Molly

A cloud hangs over and mutes my happiness
A thousand ships couldn't sail me back from distress
Wish you were here, I'm a wounded satellite
I need you now, put me back together, make me right

I picture your face at the back of my eyes
A fire in the attic, a proof of the prize
Anna Molly, Anna Molly, Anna Molly

I'm calling your name up into the air
Not one of the others could ever compare
Anna Molly, Anna Molly

Wait there is a light there is a fire
Illuminated attic fate
Or something better, I could care less
Just stay with me a while

Wait there is a light there is a fire
De-fragmenting the attic fate
Or something better, I could care less
Just stay with me a while

I picture your face at the back of my eyes
A fire in the attic, a proof of the prize
Anna Molly, Anna Molly, Anna Molly

I'm calling your name up into the air
Not one of the others could ever compare
Anna Molly, Anna Molly

Anna Molly
Anna Molly

[JonnyJerny]

Oh boy I'm four days late.

Woops.

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In a nightmare, I am falling, from the roof into bed beside you. You're asleep, I'm screaming helplessly, shaking you to try and wake you up. And before you got no entrance, in the life you lived when you're awake, your dream still follows fairy tales like the fictions we would make. So I lie down next to you, soon enough, we're back in the hospital. But now it's not your deathbed, we're in the morgue. Men and women adorned in black, are singing around you, with heavy shovels digging muck, placed right on top of your neck. I'm still in that hospital bed, I'm being buried alive, I'm trying to dig you out, because I know all you want is to be buried together.

I've finally woken up, I'm in the bed we share, but there's no life beside me, someone must have stolen you while I was asleep, but I start to realize as my eyes adjust, you've been gone for quite some time now, a year or two, I don't go to that hospital anymore, they had to let me go. When I move my arms, they're too heavy to lift, I think you buried me awake, your only parting gift.

But you return to me at night, right when I think I've fallen asleep.

Your face is right against mine, and I'm too terrified to hold you.

You kept screaming at me...
You were angry at me...
You cursed me...
And then you smiled...
And then you cried...
And then you apologized.

I love you all ;_;

[JonnyJerny]

http://vocaroo.com/i/s0uxNBOFVpBR

^Relevant to above.