Pattern of control

[Seva]

The voice, it came to me once more. Stealthy tones speaking to my brain from dark corners, whispering to me in the night.

"You are a pathetic fool! Look at you! Look at what you have become. You are weak, worthless, a waste of time. You let them mock you. You watch as action is taken against you and here you sit, a tiger with glass teeth."

"Come with me, I have much to tell you, much to show my sweet sweet warrior. I think you would want to see this....." The voice trailed of into the ether and I felt myself moving slowly. I was walking, following the voice to the secrets it would reveal.

There before me spread the plains and steppes of my home. I was far away yet, a hawk on the hunt. I was compeled further, the reveal would be soon.

"Gaze and fret upon that what was once yours now lost forever" The voice acid in my mind, I could not close my eyes.

I saw her. I saw her yeild herself to him. I tried to turn away yet the vision beckoned me forward. She seemed happy, at peace, was I ever there?

"How easy she forgets warrior." the voice mocked.

"It is the law of my people. We had no choice." I spat back, my words my only weapons.

"No choice?" It answered back, "Tell yourself such" The disdain was powerful. "Perhaps you are right but these gave in willingly"

Then the vision changed. I saw my sons laughing and playing. There was joy on their tiny cherub-like faces.

"We love you father!" Running on little squatty legs they embraced my brother with tiny mighty hugs. I saw it all, the cruel vision sparing no details. I saw every birthday I missed, their first steps, first words, all said and done without me. I saw their laughter as Cleyza my brother held them high in his arms and tickled under their chins. Their laugh, my laugh, never heard by my ears since exile, only dreamt of in deep slumber.

"As easily as your wife forgot you your children forgot faster. They know nothing of the great Seva" The voice mocked. "It is as if you had never been there. Had you Kinslayer?"

I looked down at my hands, my shame crushing me like the fist of a titan. I thought to myself the voice was right. I was no father. My sons, my wife, they were all Cleyza's now.

Then from all around the room grew dark. I awoke in a dark chamber. I could hear a song playing in the darkness. The song had one lyric and it repeated over and over like a mantra "you will always feel this way"

Then a great power took shape before me. It walked up to me, boots banging hard against the obsidian floor.

It held out a sword, offered it to me. I turned away and said to the Dark Lord, "I cannot accept your blade because I might end up killing everyone here." I lied to myself. I knew I needed the steel.

Then it echoed in my head, "You will always feel this way"

The Dark Lord forced the balde in my hand. It was massive, weildly. Empowered I shook. Something new had come over me.


I

want

no

part

of this.......


Everything echoed stagnant, then that voice....."You will always feel this way"

Something had to change....I stared down at my hands, they were young, strong. Still, so much fear. Then it walked up to me, boots banging.....The dark one.

He asked me a question. What that question was....and what I said....